So, I was super stoked about the new year... I was excited that I now have an opportunity to start fresh and that I can now maybe put my past behind me and start looking towards my future... I am finally divorced, in a great relationship, and getting a house... cant get much better than that...
Nothing bad has actually happened to me directly but, yesterday was the first day back to school... I'm in a new class, with a new professor, and i dont know anybody. When I went on break to the cafeteria to stuff my face with fries (I didnt bother with the "lose weight" new years resolution) I saw one of my professors that I have had nearly every quarter since I've been at this University... Just in passing I asked him how he was doing and he said he was doing okay and I went on my way to eat my potatoes and grease...
As I was leaving the cafeteria to go back to class, my professor happened to be walking into the cafeteria, he stopped me because he was supposed to be writing me a recommendation letter and he just never did... and so I asked him how his arm was (since he hurt it last quarter and was going to possibly need surgery) Well, then he started talking to me about why he hadnt gotten a chance to write my recommendation letter... here's what he said.
Professor: "Did you hear about that murder that happened over the weekend"?
Me: (I hadnt heard about the murder) "Yeah."
Professor: "That girl was my niece."
Me: (In total shock and kicking myself for the small talk) "Oh my, that's awful."
Professor: "Forty-six times. He stabbed her 46 times. That son of a bitch."
Me: (Just looking horrified)
Professor: "She was so young, just 25 years old. And her 6 month old baby was there in the next room. Thankfully he didnt hurt the baby."
Me: "That's horrible, I don't see how he could do that."
Professor: "I was a prosecutor for 30+ years, it's completely different when it's my family."
Me: "I'll definitely keep you and your family in my prayers."
Then we both just sorta went our separate ways after he again asked me to email him to remind him to do my recommendation letter because he "needs something to get this off his mind"...
So, I went home and looked it up on the news since I didn't actually know anything about what happened and saw that this guy was 29 years old, it was her baby's daddy... it happened at 3AM on Saturday... so she had just celebrated the new year and now she's dead... It's the first homicide in our city for the new year...
But all I've been able to think about since talking to him is how in the hell can you actually stab someone 46 times... Try making the stabbing motion 46 times... your arm gets tired... Imagine having the resistance of a body there as well... 46 times... I just can't believe this happened... I could see that my professor's eyes were red from crying... I am just in shock and I really don't even know how to deal with this. I mean, I didnt even know her and barely even know my professor... but this has affected me so deeply...
But, maybe through this I'll gain a better outlook on life and maybe I'll learn to appreciate my life and not get so angry and grumpy over the little things... we'll see... I better learn something from this... This family is now suffering and will never be able to actually celebrate the new year anymore b/c this son of a bitch took their daughter, mother, neice, cousin, and friend away from them...
well, sorry to present something so sad with the new year but, it just really is awful and I can't seem to get past it.
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