You know, here's the problem... At this point, I want to be pregnant so if I'm not, I'm going to be disappointed. But how can I want something that I shouldn't want? Also, if I'm not pregnant, I can't want to try to get pregnant because it really isn't a good time. So, I kind of feel bad for wanting these things..

I only have one pill left to take and then we will see if there is a baby growing inside of me or not.. This stuff is way to stressful to be dealing with right now!

So, one of the things that makes me think that I'm preggo is the fact that I am Highly emotional... As in, I feel like I want to cry at random times for no apparent reason and I get angry/snappy for no apparent reason. For instance, last night I cooked dinner and cupcakes. Afterwards, I put all the dishes in the sink because I was trying to keep my mess cleaned up. Well, Chris had to clean his fish tanks out and in order to do that, he has to hook up a syphon hose to the kitchen sink. So, he asked me to put the dishes in the dishwasher and I went off... I got so mad at him for asking me to do that one simple thing. Granted, it was a little bit frustrating that he couldnt just do it himself after I had taken the time to make him dinner and dessert... but, there really was no reason for me to get that upset with him... He didnt really do anything bad...

After that happened, I sat on the couch for quite some time by myself and just felt like crying... I was no longer mad... that's ridiculous... my emotions should not be that crazy.
Although, if I'm not preggo, then my emotional crap would make sense because generally the week before 'that time of the month' I get really emotional and fkd up... So, I dont know. We'll see what happens in a couple of days... I'm going to try to not take a test until I actually miss that time... But then if I do start, I'm going to be highly disappointed... ugh...